Changes

Hey,

Does anyone other than me hate change? Is it human nature to want to change or not change? I'm going through a lot of changes at the moment that I'm starting to accept but there is still that little struggle of accepting the fact that things are not what they used to be. I mean if we, as a society can change from being in the 90s into a new millennium than the transition from being a child to a grown up shouldn't be that hard. But it is.   

This year in particular has been about change. At school I heard about it on a daily basis but I don't think it's really hit me untill now. I don't know how to feel about it. 

For me personally my whole life is changing; I finished high school and am 90% complete with my exams. I turn 18 next week. The prospect of me knowing that I'm not going to be the same person I am now excites me but also scares me. Knowing that my initial plan for performing arts university may not happen for another year is scary but I've accepted it and changed my plans so that I can Audtion next year when I'm much more rounded as a performer. I'll be able to sing stronger and dance better  but I think that if the course I applied for doesn't have me then I can work and earn money In order to get better in my field. That's the one thing I've accepted. 

I'm still a fighter! the passion for the stage will never die within me and I'll get to that stage it just may take an extra year, that's all.

One thing I haven't accepted is that I'm going to be 18 years old. A legal adult. Yes I can drink and vote  (because I live in Australia)  but I don't feel like I'm turning 18, I still honestly feel 14. In planning this big milestone I haven't had a lot of things go my way. My dad has had a lot of input in the party and at times it frustrates me. Then I think well people are going to remember the day not went behind it. I forget that this is hard on him too. I am the baby of the family. I don't think I'll feel what he feels untill I have children myself but I'm sure everything's okay. Letting go is never easy but it is for the benefit of all involved  that it happens. 

Change is scary and things don't always go your way but it's those who are strong enough to accept it are the ones who are happiest in the end 

xoxo Belle