What if life and the universe doesn't give you what you think it does? What if being a person means not giving yourself wholeheartedly or even giving 100% of yourself into whatever it is you believe in? These are the things I'm trying to figure out as an adult. What if fitting into other peoples perceptions isn't what you think you should be doing but you do it because of societal expectations? What if what I'm saying isn't even making sense to you today?
Like I said, this is something I'm trying to tackle in life. What if the challenges we are faced are designed specifically for us, as individuals? Like feeling something for someone but the other person i'snt ready to accept the feelings for the other person. Life is hard. Life is demanding. Life is not getting up every morning at six am and going to school or work doing something that you think is not important to you as an individual. Life can be using that hard knowledge or money to prepare you for what life throws at you.
For me, life has already thrown some pretty big curveballs. I know I probably sound like most white girls but it's true. You just have to trust that you and your destiny will be fine in the end. This is something that I am learning currently. I am learning to be okay with the situations I am placed in. If i ever feel that life, or my mind is trying to distract me from what my future has in store. I come back to a place of thought that " hey, life knows what its doing, it knows who I'm turning out to be. I will be just fine" Suddenly with that I feel totally better about everything from my romantic life to my educational career and dreams. Fantasies are just what our minds and at times, heart really wants. It's using those fantasies to help drive us to what life wants us to be.
Lets say, for example. My heart tells me I like someone, alot of the time the fantasy of what the heart wants isn't always right at the time. But I tell the guy i like that i like him anyway. There could be 3 options
1. He tells me I'm spastic and never wants to see me again
2. He accepts the way I feel and reciprocates those feelings
3. We have many intelligent conversations and eventually he likes me because of those conversations.
Life will always throw us options and curveball but the choices we make have already been decided for us. Its up to us to recognise what life and the universe has in store for us and not what you think you want from it.
